Like many first year university students, Christmas has been the first time I have been home for an extended period since I moved away. I live five hours away from my family, so regular visits are not reasonable.
Christmas has been amazing and spending time with my family is so special to me. Now I am faced with the elephant in the room: moving back to university.
I am slightly ashamed to say that I allow my parents to do most of the “adulting” at home. They cook, wash the dishes, do the laundry, not because I don’t want to (not totally) but because it is their routine and they are more than happy to accommodate me.
But I don’t live at home anymore, I live on my own (in a flat with four other people). I have to do the washing up, the laundry, the food shopping, personal banking, all of the “adult” things that I have left to my parents for the last three weeks.
I can’t help feeling that leaving this time will be a bit like moving out again. I have lived at home for the best part of a month and now I am leaving, not sure when I will be coming back for more than a weekend before easter.
It is real now. The whole idea that I am an adult and I have to look after myself. I’m already thinking about accommodation for next year, jobs, exercise classes, dentist appointments, the list goes on. So, I am now going to compile a list of things I love about university to make moving back seem less scary:
- My friends in london, in all their glory!
- My boyfriend.
- My lecturers.
- My city.
- The fact I can have the meal I want every night.
- Late night chats with my flatmates.
- Cheaply priced drinks in the student union bar.
- My beautiful view.
- My matchbox dorm room that is MY space.
- My course and the opportunities it is giving me.
- Playing and writing music. (I wasn’t able to take my guitar home with me)
- The amazing nights out.
- The cuddly nights in.
- My routine.
- My new coffee machine.
- No curfew.
- Cuddling in a single bed.
- Warm powerful showers.
- Being able to miss my family and looking forward to coming home to them.
I adore university life and I know that this fear will fade once I am back. I hope I am not alone in this feeling of both anticipation and fear. If you feel the same way, please make a list of your own and send them to me via Instagram @peachypaaige Twitter @peachypaaige or Tumblr @peaachy-paige.